On Sunday we taught about the story of Esther. Here was a woman of God who served her Lord in all she said and did. Yet, things happened in her life that were “not fair.” Our main point on Sunday was that God wants us to trust Him even when life is “not fair.”
Four-times a year I encounter the absolute worst part of my job- recruiting time. I send e-mails to parents and friends. I challenge and encourage parents to take an active role in the spiritual development of their children. I request help from parents, friends and grandparents.
This is also the time when I feel the most alone. People do not respond back or even send me the courtesy of an e-mail letting me know they cannot help. Some parents actually avoid me on Sunday mornings. I am like the plague during this month of my life, four times a year. And while I know it just comes with the territory and I should not take it personally, I can’t help but be sad.
I wonder how other people would feel to have their job treated like an optional recreational activity that fits into life only when there is time. I have sacrificed so much, given up so much of my time, energy and resources…only to feel alone.
I have a few people who give me strength and encouragement, but this load is even beginning to wear on them too.
As I stare at my fall schedule praying for a miracle and realizing I will once again be teaching every Sunday this quarter, I hear myself whisper, “that’s not fair.”
The phrase vibrates through me. Where have I recently heard that phrase?
That’s not fair.
God’s quiet voice sweeps through the room, “Connie, trust me…even when life is not fair.”
I can follow His lead physically, but emotionally this is going to be hard.
Some people play sports and experience being pushed to the extreme. The physical realities of an athlete parallel the horribly painful walk of a Christ-follower. I am a Christian and am pushed everyday. Rain or shine, God does not relent to push me.
This may indeed be a “not fair” situation, but God calls me to stand tall and walk in places where there is sometimes no justice. I must live a life of trusting God knowing He knows the bigger picture. Children are the small of society.
God calls me to teach the small, love the weak and trust Him
...whether I feel like it or not,
...whether I have the energy or not,
...whether parents care or not.
There is a young life on the receiving end, hoping to encounter the Living God.
